No Names Given

Well this is for all of those actually following this blog,
i came across this girl over the internet (not giving any names) that was ready to kill her self by hitting a main artary in her forearm, because she had a bad life since she was little. She has had to deal with a mother and father that did drugs and didnt care what happened to this girl, well at age 7 her so called "God-Father" sexually abused her, and occasionally he would let his girlfriend help abused her. This sadly continued till she was almost 10. He was around alot. He took her to his house every weekend, She refused but her parents insisted. The girl is now almost 16 years old and up until she was 15 1/2 she still had nightmares of it happening over and over again. well, recently she found out he was killed. he was a drug-dealer, her parents drug-dealer. He was killed right out side of his house.She then had to deal with arguing of the 'rents all the time and her dad physically abusing her, when she would defend her mom or block her mom from getting hit. Her Father would call her names and treat her like a piece of shit on the very bottom of his shoe. When she was 10, she moved miles away with her mother, to start a new life. It didnt go well. Her and her mother stayed in different motels, barely scraping money up to pay for the rooms. Her mother started going to community college and got a degree and they got on there feet, a new house, new schools for both of them, and new apperiences. when she was 11, her closest grand mother died of natural causes.Her grandmother was her whole reason for living. her grand mother has been gone for almost 5 years now. and she says its getting harder and harder to keep for to feet on the ground and not up with her. when it first happened, the girl blamed herself for her grandmother died, The girl tried and tried to committe suicide. She didnt secseed.2 1/2 years later...her mother meets a really good guy, he had 3 kids. since then she has been cutting. Why? Because she is in the same situation from 4 years ago. she just wants to leave this world and never look back. So today she was looking for someone to listen to her story and to give her a reason to keep her feet on the ground again. I gave her that reason. Im happy was able to help someone i barely knew at the beginning and then they were just willing to open up like a book in the wind that keeps flipping pages till you get to the end. THIS GIRL DESERVES A LIFE SHE LIKES! JUST LIKE EVERYONE ELSE IN THE WORLD NO MATTER WHAT YOU LOOK LIKE, HOW YOU ACT, WHO YOU ARE, WHAT COLOR YOU ARE, WHAT ENTHICITY YOU ARE, YOU DESERVE A LIFE, NO ONE DESERVES TO DIE!

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I wish I knew if you actually felt the same way.

This is a constant picture/feeling in my mind....

There is that one part of your life when you feel like you and your better half are slowly drifting apart. You start getting to busy to spend time with each other. It sucks. You barley talk on the weekends and during the week you don't want to be away from them because you know you'll barely talk in a couple days... I just see us drifting apart at the most important time of our life's. I sure as hell need you because you are my better half. You keep me going when I have no motivation left in my body to keep fighting. Your the motivation I need to stay "afloat". I love you with all I have right now. I know it's not a lot but I truely try my best. To give you everything you want and need. Like I said you are my better half and I hope you don't leave like everyone else.

Fuck my life:-/

I fucking love it I get made fun of more at home then at school..... I hate this I just want to go to bed and never wake up.....

Rawr

Favorite saying :-/

"things are better left unsaid..."
"the best things that happens to you for a short time are more then likely going to leave"
" when you really like your situation, it's to good to be true...."

I'm confused

I could care less about what I look like around my BFF but when it comes to him I always want to look good....